A Moment of Truth

There comes a time in all blog journeys when bloggers are faced with the extremely sensitive question of how personal do I get?  How much do I disclose?  What parts of me do I share with you?  How vulnerable do I allow myself to be here?  I have just reached that fine point in time in my blogging experience and have decided to go for it and share a bit of intense truth with you.  Deep breath.  Ok, here goes!  Please be gentle with me! :)

Big changes are happening over here and we have embarked on a new adventure.  Let me elaborate.  My husband Karl and I have been married almost eight wonderful years and have struggled from the very beginning to have a child.  We desire so strongly to have our own family that it has become a continuous throbbing pain in the very deepest part of our souls.  Oh we are getting very good at hiding it, and can go about our life as if nothing is broken inside, but some days I crumble when I see the hope diminishing from my husband's eyes.  

We have now reached a breaking point, and after spending hours on our knees in prayer for direction, we have come to the realization that the fulfillment of our biggest hope will take big sacrifice.  Thus we decided to put our farmhouse up For Sale by Owner with a plan to rent for a while to save up money for adoption.  AND guess what?  Our house has SOLD already!  Yes, it is bitter sweet and I shall miss this old farmhouse that has become home to us in every sense of the word and, of course, my spacious gardens, and our large barn from which I host my antique barn sales, but sacrifice is sacrifice.  Karl and I are excited to face this new chapter in our lives and move forward!  I will be hosting one last gigantic Antique Barn 'Moving' Sale here this Friday, June 20 from 1 pm to 6 pm and Saturday, June 21 from 9 am to 2 pm.  I have been super busy sorting through our entire house and getting the barn ready for the sale!  I would love to have you stop by and please bring all your friends!  I hope to take a few photos of the sale and post here soon to show you!  I will also be loading up the shop with favorite items that need to move on to better homes as well!

We still aren't sure where to go from here, but through much prayer and a maturing of our faith, we know that we are in Awesome Hands and can feel our Lord's gentle (sometime firm) nudging behind us instructing us in the way that He has laid out.  When we turn to our own way, we crash headfirst into the roadblocks put in our path, but can still feel encouraged that there is a window open somewhere else.  It isn't easy to walk by faith and not by sight, but we know we do not go at it alone.  Whatever happens in the end, we have great peace that God knows what is best for us.

Thank you for letting me open up a bit for you all to peer inside.  I hope I have not scared you away with my moment of truth.  During the next couple weeks as we pack up and move, I might not have time for impressive blog posting, but I will surely keep you all informed throughout our journey and of course the shop will remain open right up to moving day, so please don't stray too far away! :)

Note:  Everything found in the above photos can be purchased in the shop soon or at my upcoming Antique Barn Sale!  Hope to see you there!  :)